I am very bored and disgusted with myself. Why am I so complacent. I’m really not lazy when I have things to do. I am very responsible when sober anyway. And, I have been sober for over a year now. Yipee!! I know the things that I need to do in order to improve my life, but getting motivated is a bitch. I have so much potential but it is and has been wasted. I have had so many opportunities; also wasted. I guess I have a reason to be a little depressed and to experience some low self-esteem. But, I have never given up hope. I have so many interest that I am wishy-washy when it comes time to stay focused on long-term goals. There is so many things that I enjoy doing or think that I would enjoy. I am so confused!